Please don't stop the music.

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

felt sianned again.
and didnt want to do homework.
so went to do blogthings.

You're a total perfectionist. So go ahead and congratulate yourself on a "perfect" score.
The truth is, everyone is sick of living up to your standards. And you're probably even sick of them yourself.

Are You a Perfectionist?

oops. =x

You Are a Good Friend Because You're Loyal

You stick with your friends no matter what, even if you feel like they're doing the wrong thing.
You believe in letting people figure out their own path in life. It's not your place to interfere.

And part of your loyalty means that you'll do a lot for your friends. You definitely go the extra mile.
You'll even do great things for friends without them asking. After all, that's what friendship is all about.

You are truly a friend for life. And you have friends you've known since you were a kid.
Your friends can count on you to do a favor, remember a birthday, or just be there to listen.

Your friends need you most when: They can't turn to anyone else

You really can't be friends with: Fickle people who change friends quickly

Your friendship quote: "Friendship doubles your joys, and divides your sorrows."

What Makes You a Good Friend?

You're Kind of Stupid

You got 7/10 questions right!
There's some things most people know... except for you.

Are You Stupid?

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are aloof, mysterious, and distant.
People feel like they really don't know the true you...
Yet they're still drawn to you, almost by magnetic force.

Underneath it all, you don't even really feel like you know yourself.
It's easier to put on a front than really think about your life's purpose.
You tend to seem pretentious, but it's just a mechanism you use to push people away.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

i feel like i have done this test before.
anyways.

You Are a Newborn Soul

You are tolerant, accepting, and willing to give anyone a chance.
On the flip side, you're easy to read and easily influenced by others.
You have a fresh perspective on life, and you can be very creative.
Noconformist and nontraditional, you've never met anyone who's like you.

Inventive and artistic, you like to be a trendsetter.
You have an upbeat spirit and you like almost everything.
You make friends easily and often have long standing friendships.
Implusive and trusting, you fall in love a little too easily.

Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

thats all.
felt kind of sian again doing tests.
maybe i will start on homework.

MAYBE ONLY.

daNIel

3:05 PM

Sunday, May 27, 2007

so long never post already.
i shall post about hmms.
so many things happened.
just yesterday then.

26/5/07
yesterday was so damn fun can.
first went to school.
after entering classroom.
felt like slapping somebody straightaway.
like whatever.
then went to lift lobby to start on composition.
and lye sim came by.
and told jerald not to copy maths.
and told her life story.
then i was like down there laughing.
and just when i thought i was lucky.
she asked me what i was doing.
and then ask me to follow her to the corridor.
then tell me to look at greenery for inspiration.
i was like.
somebody get me away from this.

lol-ed.
then ptc was okay.
poony didnt have anything to say.
cause my mom didnt know what to ask her either.
only my late coming.
and nothing else.
that was total boredom.
i felt like yawning when poony was talking.
and its cause she cant complain about my geog.
then there was a whole bunch of people staying back.
playing with cards.
anything you can think of jiejun thought of.
playing lame card games.

after all that.
we went to eat lunch.
me, valerie, sinyi and weiqi went to mac.
and jiejun, weijia and jiayu went to the
place opposite the school.
and at mac.
something really LAME happened.
it started with the fan-tastic that valerie and sinyi ordered.
valerie was saying that she could make something like this.
just take rice and mash into the shape of a burger.
then take the 80 cents chicken from western.
then she said how to get sesame.
and i said can buy mah.
then sinyi said sesame street.
and i forgot what happened next.
then sinyi said to me, "the place u live in" in chinese.
and then weiqi started laughing like mad.
and she thought i didnt get sinyi's lame joke.
but i was giving her a 'diao-ed' look.
then she started one of her laughing fits.
and everybody was laughing.
EXCEPT ME.
that was totally lame can.
she and her BIG BIRD joke.
and weiqi couldnt stop laughing.
*rolls my eyes*
then we decided to take a taxi back to school.
and i was sitting in front, naturally.
and the three of them were laughing like mad again.
and i was like, WHAT?
then when we got off.
weiqi and sinyi were explaining to me.
that my sit was further in front than the driver's.
and i was like, SO?
and they said how can big bird squueze in.
and then i gave them the same look.

after that whole lame thing.
went back to class.
stomped our feet on the way back. lol-ed.
then at class dont know what everyone was doing.
so went to change.
i brought home clothes.
then jiejun asked me, "i thought you never bring pe?"
then i said, "ya. i never bring pe. but i got bring home clothes."
then he gave me the sian look i give everybody.
LOL-ED.

a quarter of the class stayed back.
me, jiejun, chang jing, chinchye, yixie,
jiayu, weijia, weiqi, sinyi, valerie.
jiejun wanted to do "warm-ups"
so we did the dog and bone thing.
was kinda boring.
in the end the whole pouring water thing started real early.
and we just.
started pouring water on each other.
and chinchye with his phrase,
"the best hit is the hit you dont see coming"
i can desrcibe what happened in detail.
cause really nothing much.
just .. pouring water on each other.
then jiejun wanted to take the pond water.
so me, weijia and jiayu.
ran into the girls toilet.
and jiejun came in with his bottle.
and the pond water hit weijia and jiayu i think.
yay i didnt get hit.
im so bad lol.
then the door opened and closed.
so jiejun went out.
and we got out of the cubicles.
then the door opened.
and in came yixie!
he scared us.
then the three of ur ran to the boys toilet.
and jiejun followed our footsteps there.
and he tried spraying us with the hose there.
but i stopped him.
lol.
later sinyi wanted to play in the canteen toilet.
but we didnt want to.
in the end i think either jiejun chased sinyi or vice versa.
and jiejun met up with yoyo.
then she asked him why never buy cultural pot ticket.
so lame can.
she didnt even realise that he was soaking wet.
after that yoyo announced that the school was closing in five minutes.
and we didnt care.
but we moved to the canteen.
probably cause we were bored already.
then chinchye and chang jing played basketball.
then i just picked up a ball and tried shooting.
and i suck, i knew that like since primary one.
and weiqi and jiayu had nothing to do.
so they sat around.
and jijeun, sinyi, weijia and yixie tried getting the hose to spray us.
but it was in vain.
and valerie went off on her own.
she was sick.
sorry valerie!
leave you alone.
it was really quick.
suddenly everybody wanted to go home already.
but me, jiayu and weiqi didnt want to go home.
so in the end.
the three of us plus sinyi, weijia and yixie went to lot 1.

the journey there was long.
and loud. and lame.
with weiqi laughing the whole time.
cause she was trying to say how funny the whole big bird thing was.
and she was laughing so loud larrh.
then when we reached.
we went to long john to eat.
and weiqi was going to start on big bird again.
then i said, "im going to freeze to death already"
then weiqi laughed like mad.
ohmygod.
and i was like.
i cant belive this person.
she laughs at everything can.
then we went to lift lobby.
i was telling yixie.
i saw someone who looks like the guy in 'i not stupid'
i only knoe the joshua name.
so i was asking what the other guy name was.
and we were like right beside him.
later then dunno who told me.
is shawn lee.
yes.
oh and before that.
there was an advertisement.
with cows.
then they started laughing.
and weiqi was starting on laughing fits again.
and the group of guys were looking at us.
and the shawn lee was one of them.
i could see him cause i was facing him and everybody else not.
then went up to take neoprints.
there was a sign that said.
'no banging. please call for assistance'
obviously its for the machine.
then i said that we cant put the bang sign.
lol.
but when we take neo that time.
i banged weiqi in the first one.
then she bang back.
lol.
we broke the rule.
LOL-ED.
after that sinyi and weiqi designing.
weiqi pen spoiled one.
MUAHAHAH.
then me, weijia and jiayu go see the perm hair one.
and weijia was playing with it.
and the bed also.
then i say if we 'lie down'
it can look real de.
it really did lorrh.
then design finish already.
the pic very small. but very nice.
very fun! ((:
then we went down to mini toons.
cause they wanted to see if there was a big bird there.
and there really was.
ohmygod and lame things happened.
then sinyi and jiayu had a 'fist fight'
with fake fists!
and sinyi went to look at the balloons.
she was looking for big bird balloon.
then we went down.
and we saw a sesame street ride.
you know those for kids?
and they laughed again.
and sinyi said it was my car.
*cue lame look*
oh and weijia saw a bag.
that had the same design and colour as the bed in the neoprints.
and i told her.
buy the bag.
then use it as pillow and take neoprint.
LOL.
then it was about 9 plus le.
then we remembered.
got jiu kong show todae!
so went home liao.
weijia and jiayu went down to buy something.
weiqi stays at chao chu kang.
so me, sinyi and yixie took mrt.
then weijie called.
and he's starting on holidae homework like tomorrow already.
weijie dun need so kiasu.
i told him i will start one dae before school reopens.
diao.
then cause the three of us going different ways.
sinyi go boon lay.
i go towards pasir ris.
then yixie in jurong.
so i said.
when the mrt reach jurong east.
sinyi go left.
i go right.
then yixie dig a hole and go down.
lol.
then we were teasing yixie.
hahhs.
and i wanted to buy bubble tea at clementi.
and the both of them were saying that it will be closed already.
eat your words!
cause it was still open.
yay! then i bought bubble tea and went home liao.

ohmygod.
such a long post.
write until my fingers pain already.
but i had lots of fun!
thanks u guys! for so much fun yesterday! what a nice way to end the semester!
(((((((:

daNIel

9:13 PM

Monday, May 21, 2007

I AM SO DARN PISSED OFF CAN.
SO MANY PEOPLE HAVE WRITTEN THEIR INFO COMPOS.
AND JERALD SENDS THE MESSAGE THAT ITS
INFORMATIVE.
IM LIKE.
WHAT THE FCUK.
AND I DONT CARE IF IM HURLING VULGARITIES.
I CANT CARE LESS ABOUT THAT.
AND AS I TOLD SARAH, NOW I HAVE TO REROUTE MY
BRAIN.
FROM INFORMATIVE TO NARRATIVE.
AND FINALLY, MY BRAIN CAN WORK NORMALLY.
BUT STILL.
JERALD SAID THAT HE WROTE ON THE BOARD.
LIKE REAL LARRH !
AND HOW CAN ZOO SMS HIM LIKE THAT.
SHE SHOULD SMS SARAH OR PEILIN.
NOT HER PET !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HE'S NOT THE ENGLISH REP.
EVEN IF SHE LOVES HIM.
SHE CANT BE SO IRRESPONSIBLE.
AND IF HE DARES DEFEND HIMSLEF TOMORROW.
IM SO GOING TO FIGHT BACK.
EVEN IF ZOO ASKS ME TO SHUT UP.
CAUSE TOO BAD.
SHE'S A ZOO.
SO WE'RE TAUGHT BY A ZOO.
SO WE'LL BE ROWDY.
U HEARD THAT ***** .

okay.
my keyboard's gonna spoil soon.
after all that banging.
cause english compos are hard to write okay.
we dont do 20 min work.
YES JERALD IM GLARING AT U NOW.
and we have to rack our brains.

daNIel

9:28 PM

Sunday, May 20, 2007

i just changed my blogskin.

cause i got tired of that 'complicated' picture.

so i found this.

i thought it was quite nice.

so took it.

and i took hours just to put this in.

i couldnt be bothered with my tagboard already.

i tried everything.

changed everything.

but it couldnt work.

so anybody who knows what's the problem.

please help me !

cause im a techno idiot.

daNIel

2:49 PM

ohh.
i came back here cause i forgot to post something.
i kep telling jerald that im going to post this.
about the singing group frm wood boat.
LOL-ed. thats what i call them.

WOOD BOAT RESTAURANT !!

hahhs.
anyways.
im going to criticise most of them.

starting from the pianist.
she knew how to play like so many songs.
was damn shocked.
like even if we ask them play songs.
she can play anything live.
thats what i call professionalism.
memorising so many songs.
but just one word of advice.
leave the singing to the others please.
dont attempt anything dangerous.
or that might spoil the show.
SORRIES !!

then was the girl.
she only sang one song so there was nothing much to say.
she sang stefanie sun's song.
if she joined an imitation contest she can win hands down.
at least i think so.
but if it was like an original contest.
she will lose.
she was more like a secretary for the rest of the performance.
cause she was collecting all the papers.
and also reading them out.

then next is the "leader".
cause he was the one saying and introducing everything.
i suggest he stick to being the host or something.
cause he cant really sing that well.
and he was like promoting his teaching or something.
and calling out his students' name.
that was so uncalled for.
who wants to know who your students are?
you can just talk to them after school or something.
nobody wants to know about your teaching career either.

then it was jeff.
the presumably most good looking guy there already.
or the one with the nicest hair.
or whatever.
im just going to say it straight.
HE CANT SING.
hello.
and he cant even follow the music.
he sings at his own pace.
and also abit out of tune.
and the poor pianist.
has to slow down the whole song.
and just try to accomodate him.
XIN KU NI LE PIANIST !
and he kept interrupting people when they are singing.
like saying things.
i forgot what.
i just know he was extra.
and he tried to erm.
i dont know whats the english.
but the chinese is pei yin.
or something like that.
and he couldnt even get the right note.
and he thought he was making the song better.
this makes me sick.
i had goosebumps listening to him sing evan yo's wo ke yi.
and its not the "your singing is so good" goosebumps.
its the "your singing freaks me out" gooesbumps.
like whoever hired him?
he must be related to the manager or something.
otherwise he couldnt have gotten in.
and if i were the manager, i would kick him out of my restaurant.
and warn any other WOOD BOAT restaurants out there.

then the last one already.
the guy at the end there.
who wasnt really into the performance.
but had the best voice there already.
and he pei yin is very nice.
not like the guy up there.
he was like dormant throughout the performance.
when the rest of the group was talking.
he was like sitting there in his own world.
only when it was his turn to sing.
then he came alive.
and he sang the best.
so kudos to him.

lucky i didnt mix this with my post on fridae.
if not it would be like the longest post ever.
hahhs.

daNIel

12:54 PM

Friday, May 18, 2007

OMG.
blogger is finally okay!
now i can post multi-colouredly.
hahhs. sweet.
found this thing on huiyu's blog.
so went to do for fun.

Everyone feels despondent at times and you are no exception. You are feeling so depressed because it seems that everything that could go wrong has gone wrong and you don't quite know which way to turn. So like the proverbial ostrich you are trying to bury your head in the sand. But that won't work - you have to face reality.

You are very self-sufficient and methodical. You presume to know where you are going but need to find a person who will recognise the way you are, not be too demanding and who is, as they say in Italy, 'Simpatico'.

You are confined and trapped in a distressing or uncomfortable situation and seeking some way out. Whatever you seem to do to resolve the problem hasn't worked out. Fortunately you are able to gain some aspect of relief from someone close to you.

Recent disappointment has led you to become truly introverted. You are becoming suspicious of everybody and consequently you now feel that you are unable to trust anybody. Unfortunately it would appear that you are curbing your natural enthusiasm and imaginative nature - perhaps this is because you are fearful that you may become over enthused and find that you could possibly be carried away by wishful thinking. You are keeping your distance to see whether attitudes towards you are sincere - but this watchfulness could easily develop into suspicion and distrust.

Perhaps in the distant past your trust and belief in your fellow man was misplaced and you can now no longer accept anything as it appears to be. You are untrusting and you insist that before you commit yourself to anything, you examine the pro's and con's with critical discrimination. The situation has now progressed to one where you are apt to disagree yet not make any form of constructive criticism to every suggestion that may be put to you. As a result you are in limbo. There is a saying that goes 'The past does not equal tomorrow'. Think about it - and let go.

all i had to do was choose colours according to which one
is best in harmony with me.
well.
i think only those in blue are true.
i dont know.
everythings such a blur.
so i did this.
to find enlightenment.
*CUE BRIGHT LIGHT GLARING DOWN AT ME*
hahhs.

anyways.
there was NP yesterdae.
and had to rush my uniform.
lucky nobody say my boots never polish.
hehes.
cause i didnt. !
AND.
i was so disgusted by something.
by the bloody pathetic bunch of people.
who only knew how to act cute and act enthusiastic.
like seriously,
GET A LIFE.
we all know its not true.
we're just nice enough not to say it to your faces.
:))

and today was so much FUN.
yayys.
the whole school day was total boredom.
though oliver twist was NICE.
its so darn nice can.
too bad ms yeo stopped it.
i could've watched it for the whole lunch period.
i dont know why nobody likes it. :((

well, the party starts after school!
actually, it started at like. 3 or 4 plus.
anyways.
it started with a round of IQ san lian pai!
and then it was jerald, jiejun, yeeling and sinyi.
they were doing charades.
well, the whole game was about charades anyways.
then it was jiayu, weiqi and xiuhuan.
I DIDNT ACT.
yayys.
i only guessed.

then jiejun tried to make us play the jie long.
or whatever its called.
it was kind of a failure.
SORI JIEJUN !
then it was the one where we had to jump around !
to the four chinese tones.
that was so darn fun !!!
we should play more of that. :))

and yay.
weijie told me my level position for express.
ohmygod.
i couldnt believe it lorrh.
i wont write it here.
lest i get more comments.
but im so damn HAPPY.
yay.
the only thing left to overcome.
is the maths test next thursday.
now that will be killer.
oh and.
PTC.
is so dead.
poony will complain about my late coming.
and i was late today !
for the 15th or 16th time.
(i think)
maybe even more.
O.O

okayys.
thats enough ramblings.
waiting for survivor to come on now !

daNIel

9:50 PM

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

STEREOTYPES.

these r wat ruins our lives.
i mean, come on.
people onli think one way.
and they dont think the other way.
so everything's supposed to be what everybody else says.

and this is total shit, i tell u.
this is so darn depressing.
HELLO.
im onli thirteen
not even fourteen.
and yet, the world has pushed so much on me.
n so has it on everybody else.

what is wrong with this world.
this reminds me of jeralds speech
youth volunteers-can we make a difference?
if the society is depending os much on us for the future.
saying that we are the future of singapore and all that.
isnt that too much pressure for us to handle?
and it backfires, u see.
we break down.
and in the end.
who they have to depend on?
the ageing population of singapore?
i think not.

so attention all adults.
pushing us ike that's not gonna help anybody.
even if u think it encourages us.
URE WRONG, OKAYY?
so just stop it.
unless u want to see a mass comitting of suicide.
hahhs.
then it will be like.
u reap what u sow.
u get the point, yahhs?

okaayys.
that was the ramblings of a mad man.
a.k.a YOURS TRULY.
asta la vista, people!
okay now that,
that was just plain weird.
AHH.
im talking to myself.

daNIel

9:10 PM

Sunday, May 13, 2007

three days since i last posted.
that friends post.
hahhs.

anyways
i went to read jess' cheesy story.
(according to her)
and i was like,
okay to me its cheesy.
(SORI JESS!)
but at least she writes well.
not like me.
i would kill to write like that.
but even then, i still wouldnt get it.

CURSE YOU PEOPLE UP THERE WHO DECIDE HOW I WRITE!
my A1 in english will never come.
and there goes my 75% again.
BOOHOO.
like, i will never reach it.
whereas people like valerie.
its a norm for them to cross it.
WAHHHHSSSS.

maybe i should write like jess.
but that will be so copying.
and not my original style.
even though she says its fine to take it and change it.
but then it will be cause of her skills.
and not mine.
hahhs.

STOOPID ZOO.
now my english is an exact 70.0%
cause she didnt like my computers compo.
and she said i wrote good intro!
like that should be worth at least some marks rite?
at least a 20 for my compo?
im desperate already, okay?

cause i lost my top position to yeeling.
WAHHHS. im crying like a baby.
but at least she's from express.
theres a good point. ((:
oh and express is dominating 204!
yeah!
the six people who could go to special last year and didnt.
are fighting back now.
well, except for me.
cause like.
JIEJUN -- BIO
WEIJIA -- GEOG
YEELING -- ENG

those are the confirmed ones.
then eunice most likely is history already.
cause right now shes first in the class.
and abi hasnt marked finish our papers.
then dingyi can get maths de.
and me? nothing.
cause lit is going to yanru.
chinese is going to people like jiejun, yanru(again!), valerie, yeeling, minqi, weijia also.
plus lots of other people.
then art is like gone case.
oh actually bio shld be counted with chem.
but then jiejun wont be first cos valerie overtakes him.
so i put bio instead.
MUAHAHAHAH.

yay. this post is much happier.
hope to see more of these.
and i've watched sky high for the fourth time today.
hahhs. cause it was super moms special.
and my whole family (except me)
went out for a mothers day dinner thing.
and i said clearly i didnt want to go.
cause all my mom will say to me is that.
i changed so much.
dont want go church anymore.
BLAHBLAHBLAH.
say its cause of my frens.
and my sis will be like saying
"so what if u're smart?
you got bad attitude."
then most prob i will say.
"well, at least i have a brain, unlike you.
then at least i can act as if i hv a good attitude.
not like you.
brainless freak."
yes.
that will be a LOVELY FAMILY DAY for me.
whatever.
like i even care if they abandon me.
or make me go see a counsellor.
cause i will try reverse psychology.
or like make the counsellor my psychology teacher!
if he's/she's qualified, of course.
hahhs.
going back to my log book!
otherwise that'll be a BIG FAT 0 for my history test.

daNIel

4:13 PM

Thursday, May 10, 2007

blogger is still the same.
so cant make any dramatic statements.
cause i really need some inmy post now.
so moving on.

when it was chinese today.
we had to do the paper again.
and then i was reminded of the essay on true friendship.
and then i told myself that i would write something on that.
and i told myself that on wednesdae.
but im only writing it now.
so anyways.

it said that some people just use friends
for their own like selfish gains.
and immediately names came popping into my head.
but there was one that stood out the most.
i shan't sae that person's name.
even though i don't think he/she will get hurt.

he/she is so fake.
yet you don't realise it.
you say you have eyes to see, ears to hear,
and heart to feel or something like that.
but apparently you just don't see this.
you say he/she treats you well.
but have you ever thought if it was all an act?
maybe you actually don't ahve all that.

and then i went on to think.
if names actually came pooping into my mind.
what does it actually reflect on us?
does it show what people truly are?
of course, i can't decide everything.
but it seems like.
i cant trust the world anymore.

but im willing to change.
and i promised jess.
actually i didnt actually write out or say out the words.
so am i off the hook?
hahhs.

anyways.
since im trying to change.
im gonna post about today.
instead of all that stuff.

wells. i was almost late again todae.
and if i were.
it would be like.
the 15th time.
in two terms.
like i wonder when i will get punished.
anyways.
later was maths n music.
and that was totally weird.
ms chia released us 12 mins early!!
n like.
recess was calling out to me.

after that.
chinese test again.
then english.
which was total crap.
n debate is tomorrow.
n jerald will say that its his script.
then i'll get scolded by zoo.
like i actually care about her.
i only care about my english marks anyways.
oh and she said computer people did badly!!!
like this will be my first compo below 20.
that's so pathetic for me.

and poony gave back test paper.
THANKS YANG YEE.
i think i wouldnt have gotten so high if not for you.
LOL.
that's so cheating.
we had no assembly today.
so we had like meng hua coming in and out.
i tink.
i wasnt paying much attention to her anyways.
bio was much more important.
and chemistry was SHIT.
UTTER AND TOTAL CRAP.
like its useless.
we still have to take it no matter what anyway.

then stayed back as usual.
helped poony key in marks for geog.
and congrats to weijia for getting highest for geog frm 201 to 207!
like 90.
who gets that?
im satisfied with my geog already.
cause i know i can't do very well for that anyway.
and im EXTREMELY SATISFIED with my maths.
yay.
if everything goes well.
i might just be highest in class.
unless of course dingyi does much much better than me in graphs.
then im dead meat.
cause i will fail my graph.

so now im just praying.
praying that i can do well for the rest of the subjects.
then i can still get promoted to special.
cause it would really help if i could.

daNIel

10:51 PM

Tuesday, May 8, 2007

okayy.
this is so maddening.
i dont know whether it is my computer or blogger.
but the posting thing has a problem.
and now i cant change to any other font.
or size, for that matter.
so full of crap.
that's so blogger.

anyways.
life at school is like a chore.
im not like.
yay. i get to go to school and meet my friends anymore.
its more like.
oh crap.
there's school today.
and anyway.
what good is there to go to school if i dont have any friends.
like, zilch. none.
that true friends part valerie said in her post.
then it make me think of my primary school.
and how much i miss it.
and how i know that i cant go back there again.
and how i have to let that go.

then i go to think about my friendless situation.
most likely, its my own problem.
like.
the more you find perfection in others, the lonelier you will be.
like. maybe i cant expect much from them.
and i cant get them to do what i want them to do.
to be what i want them to be.
but that's just not me.

i've always felt like there was this other person inside me.
(okay, i got that from high school musical)
but seriously.
i cant be myself anywhere.
maybe its just they cant accept me for who i am.
n maybe im just too conscious of that.
perhaps not talking to anybody for a while can help.
to shut myself off from the rest of the world.
or the class, not the world.
not face the confusion.
but i have to face it sooner or later.
just not now.
not when i cant let go of the past.
and how my self esteem is at an all time low.
because of all the things people say to get at me.

i know i cant let that get to me.
but i just cant act like im impervious to all this.
because again, i just have to accept that fact.
the fact that nobody actually cares about my existence.

and im sick of it all.
im sick of how the world works.
does it have to be like this?
how everybody says that the world is a cruel place.
and that we have to accept it.
cant we change it?
cant we shape the world into our own?
so that there are lesser problems in the world?

cause im sick of how people do things for their own benefits.
its like a war is being fought between people.
to fight for their own benefits.
to go through any ways and means to get what they want.
and to sabotage other people.
i mean. this is like cowardice to the fullest extent.
if u want to do something, just declare it.
its not like i will come at you with a chopper.
or a gun.
cause i wont even be able to get those into school.

oh i wrote so much.
at least i got a load off my shoulders.
now they're much lighter.
more carefree.
and i need my sleeping time.
i guess im getting old.
i cant stay awake for too long anymore.
I NEED MY SLEEP.
so bye then.

daNIel

10:12 PM

Wednesday, May 2, 2007

hellos.
came here to say.
HAPI BDAE VALERIIE!!!!!

n to say how stupid my debate topic is.
no yanru.
don't blame yourself.
i only blame jerald.
for having such a big mouth.
but i can only blame him for that.
cause i cant blame him for loving eunice.
i cant stop love.
ESPECIALLY TRUE LOVE.
so there.
its not anybody's fault.
but jerald's.
n he only wants to see me have a worse defeat than he had.
what a pathetic loser.
what a coward.
don't make me go on.
cause i can find synonyms for many words.
and stop saying that i live in denial.
cause im not.

HELLO??!!
what denial?
please use the correct words.
think before you speak.
oh wait.
you can't.
cause you don't have a proper brain.
and im proud to say that at least i have one.
to see this injustice.

daNIel

10:32 PM