Please don't stop the music.

Saturday, January 26, 2008

From this paragraph onwards lies the facade of happiness that is my life. Thank you very much.

I have maths homework and lit homework and overdue english homework and tests to study for. I'm dead meat. I feel kind of ... for saying that I have confidence of scoring full marks for Chemistry. I mean I know people will have tons of views for that sentence and all but I don't care. It's not like I say it every single time. I'm just confident for Chemical equations. Though now I'm kind of worried about it again. I promised myself I would be more serious in my work this year and I'm not doing that. So much for New Year Resolutions. Speaking of which, Stop Taking Taxis In The Morning is one of them. Speaking of which(again!), I wonder how I maintain this facade of wealth(another facade!). Especially when I hate it if someone calls me rich. Because that shows that they don't know me.

Had a talk with LPS on thursday about NP. And Stephanie was there too (HAHA). She talked about lots of things and kept asking me why I didn't want to go NP. And I gave her lots of reasons in the end. Which kind of led to her talking about the future and me not wanting to adapt to the environment and whatnot. Kind of reminds me of TYT. Hmm .. I feel kind of bad for saying this but I have to say that what she said had no impact on me personally. Except for that tiny little part where Sec 3s who are in Uniformed Groups get to go on this totally different Sec 3 camp from the rest of the people which is freaking nice because it has more exciting activities than the normal one which the rest of them are going to. Sadness. Maybe I'll just skip Sec 3 camp then. The main reason I'm still contemplating quitting NP is because of the CCA I have to think of joining. Why must CCA be such a problematic topic. I really blame NanHua for their stupid system. It's like, they don't allow you to join a CCA like Badminton or whatnot unless you have background in that. So many other schools allow you to join a new CCA even if you know zilch about it. Now I feel like transferring to my sister's school. Her normal Sec 3 camp already has the exciting activities that LPS said. Plus her school allows people who have no background to join whatever CCA they like. Sigh.

I'm still really really thinking about whether or not I should quit NP. Everyone I've asked told me not to quit NP. But my mind is like on 85% of quitting NP. I think people think I'm stupid for wanting to quit NP. I just realised the last four sentences ended with 'quit (or any other form of the word, eg. -ing) NP'. If those sentences were part of my compo I'd kill myself. It has lack of variation of sentence structure. Okay sidetracking.

I'm stuck on maths homework and it sucks because my mind is not suited for thinking questions. That's probably why I don't join stuff like Maths Olympiad or what. I'm not saying that my maths suck, I'm just saying that I don't do thinking questions. Everytime I think of the word 'suck' I think of my Diagnostic Test. Which then again leads me to think of something I shouldn't think of. Then again, curiosity can't hurt me for I'm not a cat. ChinChye was the first person who thought of that from my compo. Tsk tsk, dirty-minded ChinChye. Plus, I made the connection of him with a cat. Same starting letter anyways. God knows what I was thinking when I wrote my compo.

I've decided that tomorrow shall be a day for me to mug. That is, if I can concentrate on mugging. Mug, cup, glass, whatever. I'm all set for it. I have spelling and good phrases to remember, then History to start memorising because I intend to do well for that. But first I should think about my lit and chinese. Social Studies I'm prepared to fail because I'm not learning anything from it. Where's Ng CT when you need her. Sigh. She abandoned our class!

My maths is looking oh so bright for me. I wonder if it'll be short lived. And whether what happened last year will repeat itself. Like me starting off with good math grades then slowly slipping into just scraping an A1. People say I should be contented but I'm not because I know I can do better. I just totally realised that 204 is a mugger class. Never have I felt so relieved when I hear that many other people didn't study for this test and that. But still I see JieJun everyday writing notes and stuff. But this time it's different. I'm not stressed when I look at him. Or because of the fact that Jerald has started math tuition and just scored full marks on our recent A math test(which is same as me by the way). Now I know I don't need some competitive drive to push me to study. It feels much better living in a less competitive environment. Ah, the freedom.

I was supposed to post on friday but here I am making things up as I go along. At least I posted on something though. I still feel like bowling and I really want to. It's a real pity that the bowling alley near my house closed down. No more late night bowling for me. D: That's my first smiley in the post, and it's not even smiling. I feel so worn out now. Like I've been working non stop. Nowadays the first thing on my mind is sleep. Then bowling. But sleeping rocks. Even an insomniac like me thinks that sleeping is nice. I think it's to make up for those two months of holiday where I slept an average of two hours a day. Or even less. Oh yeah. Friday.

Basically, nothing interesting happened.

11:35 PM

Saturday, January 5, 2008

I feel like taking away my tagboard. I'm too lazy to reply tags already. And since hardly anyone tags me if I don't tag or don't post then what's the point man. Sigh.

ANYWAY. I haven't touched the computer in a week already and I don't really feel deprived. And nowadays I feel more like reading books. Man I'm turning into a nerd. Oh this is the first post of 2008. New class. Hmm. It's seriously seriously too early to say about 304 because come on it's only the first three days of school what do you expect. I think our class is nice. Plus it's freaking scary because there are smart people like Shalyn and JieJun and I think WeiSong's smart too. Oh man I'm gonna be last in class :O

I owe Jess a post on sentosa and it happened a week ago. But on thursday I went bowling. LOL. The only thing I remember was my score, which I saved in my phone. 119, 108, 128, 148, 130. Five games in total on thursday. Then after that went to watch Eunice's and Valerie's performance at the Esplanade. Fast forward to Wednesday, first day of school. Bowling. Score was 140, 125, 119. The other game with ChinChye I forgot my score. Then yesterday. Bowling. 143, 146, 117, 131. The reason I save my score in my phone is because I must see if my bowling is consistent. And judging from the score it isn't -.- Ah heck at least all of it's above a hundred. I must be thankful I must be thankful I must be thankful I must be thankful for what I have. Ah, screw that. I want more I want more I want much much more ;D

/edited
Okay that part was written on 5 January. Now it's 6 January -.- But I have decided that this post will be filled with my bowling scores. Wednesday's score! 115, 92, 123, 129 and 157. It totally sucked and rocked because of the low and high score. Oh but average of five games is 123. I guess that's fine. The last game I had like 4 strikes. Don't ask me I don't know how either. Then yesterday! 120, 128 and 96. I don't even want to talk about the last game. Pathetic. I didn't go NP. Whatever. My actual reason was that I forgot to bring my uniform (which includes stupid boots which I took time to polish) but now I want to change that reason to I don't like NP so I didn't go. And I don't care I have no sense of responbility. So what? In fact nobody can rely on me to do anything for them because I'm such an irresponsible person. Screw me.

DAN!EL

5:41 PM

I seriously don't know what I'm doing with my life anymore.
I think my life is pathetic.
I need to end my pathetic life man.

4:44 PM