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Sunday, July 15, 2007

Ahhs. I'm back.

Is it just me? Or am I almost friendless? Okay, maybe I do have normal friends. But I hardly seem to have any close friends. Except for Ms. Fridge. I shall learn to cherish my fridge more. Oh and bucket. And anyways, the close friends part was referring to my class.

I guess I realise I'm not going to get much from this class. Heck, I might not even get much from the whole of NanHua. You know when I'm going quiet, or 'emo', a term loosely used by many Singaporeans, nobody is able to approach me. You know why? Because nobody knows me well enough. And by smsing me, chatting with me, trying to console me only then. You know what this shows? It shows that we can't be real friends face to face.

And it's in these cases. That things go the way you would never have expected them to. Talking to people you never knew would be there for you. I actually can identify a person in our class. And i actually feel that i could still have a shot at being good friends after we separate. Speaking of which, the end of secondary two is nearing. When we'll all separate. But I'm not ready to face that yet. I don't have high expectations for the rest of NanHua. I admit. This class I've been in since last year. I never really thought much of you guys. But now I'm starting to realise some of you are actually real nice people. While the others are just plain fake.

This reminds me of what JieJun always says. About how fate brought all 40 of us into the same class. And i used to think that my fate was to end up in a horrible class like this. I mean. It fits with what JieJun says. But I don't think that way anymore. Cause there are real nice people in 204. Just that I'm close to neither of them. And to think that I was the only person who knew something. But to find out that many others also knew it. I felt cheated. I'm not close to anybody in this class. And I know it. So I should just stop whining already. And don't getme wrong.I don't love 204 or anything. I just think some people are nice. People like. Too many to be listed. But I guess you know who you are. ((:

daNIel

5:24 PM