Please don't stop the music.

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

I felt so fucking irritated just now. Nowadays that's how I feel. And seriously. I'm so sick of having to be fake all the time. Sometimes I just feel like doing what I should do but I don't. Sadness.

And I feel bad. Now I feel like dying. I told myself I should at least let myself finish my studies before dying. So I shall do that.

SiewKiang is a crapper! MUAHAHAHA. She sends over a thousand messages a month and I don't even reach a thousand but yet she says I'm the one who craps alot in smses.

I just wrote three totally short paragraphs. A first for me! This week was erm, memorable? My first ever detention? Yeah Blim was saying that I'm a good boy cause she hasn't seen my name in her records so I shouldn't be coming late any more times. I almost laughed when she said that. Maybe she should go look at sec 1 and 2 records. Then she won't think I'm that good of a boy anymore. HAHA. I have to serve detention again next monday. Just because I was late 3 times. The difference between 2 and 3 is another detention session -.- I shall go. I feel motivated to write when I go. I was even writing on the third page of my zuo wen! And when I was in class I just finished the zuo wen on the same page. Which shows that I work better at detention. Funny.

Another thing was that I went for NP last week even though it was full u. Kind of a miracle. YangYee's trying to make me stop ponning already. I think I actually will ;D Not because I like NP though. But whatever. Hmm.

Tests! Chemistry's balanced equations. 23/25 I am satisfied already. I think my average will be quite okay. So if I study for common test I should be fine for Chemistry! Go Chemistry! Still don't think Shamima can teach though. But I don't know why I don't hate her O.O Oh oh Jian Ping! Seriously I'm getting more and more encouraged to do Chinese. [Egad!] Even though I wasn't listening to her today but I was tired! And my eyes hurt because of stupid spectacles so I didn't bother to look up at all. Speaking of which, I finally decided to go get a new pair of spectacles because I currently have no more working pair. I've broken all of them already -.- Saddening. Let's see.

Today was suay. First of all the stupid A Maths test stumped me. I worked possible values of x until 3, and I stopped there. Turns out the answer was -4? I should have worked to 4. Dang. Practically gave up that question. Plus people have totally different answers so I'm totally unsure of it. But it's okay. I can take it :D And Chemistry. Left blank again. But I think I can pass it. So it should be fine as long as I don't fail. I don't intend to fail sec 3 tests! What other thing was suay. Hmm. I think Lit can be considered suay. It's the most demanding subject of all. I see Pure Geog people like JieJun not really doing much when us Lit students are mugging for our lives. Okay, not mugging. But doing activities and constantly doing worksheets and looking for relationship stuff and characteristics. Very tiring. And draining. Now I feel so exhausted. I'm trying to recall what happened. Ah what the heck. I don't think anything else interesting happened. Besides packing oranges. Though I don't think that's very exciting. Plus it got me irritated. Freaking irritated. Shit.

I miss my girlfriend. Lol. It sounds funny again.

11:43 PM