Please don't stop the music.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

This stinks.

I'm still wondering whether I should be doing my homework or not. That's my problem. I always think about whether to do it, how to do it, when to do it, but never actually do it. This is so potentially Nike -.- Just do it. Procrastination is an evil thing. It's like a demon that comes slowly and consumes you until you never get anything done. That's why, the whole of my saturday was spent on the computer and sleeping. Just great. Well, at least I had some fun on the computer. Listening to music is all I need. And youtube, of course. My sister was trying to do the Hoedown Throwdown and she got it all wrong. HAHA. If you don't already know, the Hoedown Throwdown is one of Miley Cyrus' songs from her movie. Speaking of which, it's quite a typical predictable movie. I only wanted to watch the part where she sings 'The Climb', but that can be found on Youtube. And her love interest in the movie is a teenager but why is his voice so deep -.- I want a deeper voice. And then,

Me: I want some Beatles music.
Sister: *in high pitch* How deep is your love...
Me: *shoots her a look* That's the Bee Gees.

Anyway, all I did was one English comprehension and Reader's Digest. I don't understand why I did the useless ones. And all this is due on the second freaking English lesson on Term 3. I should be doing stuff like Literature, Chinese or Maths. Or Humanities. Which are all still left untouched. Heh.

Change the way you look at things and the things you look at will change. I think this quote came from some inspirational writer that went on Ellen. To be honest, I think it's corny. I'm not saying that it isn't right in its own ways, since perception is such a powerful thing. The one thing I've learnt is, the only thing that matters is what you think and what the people you care about think. I don't even want to talk about societal perceptions since that's such a recurring topic in Lit. Then again, I would need some serious Lit recap. This reminds me of my missing TKMB. And TKMB reminds me of 2kmockingbird. Because k = kilo. It's okay if you don't get it; it came from a lame source.

I went around to people's blogs and tried to go through their archives and see how we were like way back in Sec 1. I was ... Naive, to say the least. But then again, I remember I really enjoyed myself and the way I was living my life. I'm more aware of the world now, but to think back on how I was focused only on my little bubble that contained my friends and I, I have to say that I really want to go back to those days. Sometimes not knowing everything makes things much clearer. Then again, I'm reminded of people I left behind, friends I gave up on, and I really don't want to be that person I was. My thoughts constantly change, and God knows I get irritated really easily, so it's no surprise I've made horrible choices in the past. Right now, I think all I can do is to cherish the people I care about and be thankful they're not put off by me. I hate that I'm so insecure that I have to surround myself with so many people, people who couldn't be bothered about what I think. Actually. I don't know why I'm thinking about this.

Imagine if I suddenly become such a reflective and thankful person and stop being sarcastic. I think I'd shudder at the thought of not being able to express myself through sarcasm. I think I'm just mean. Oh well. My sister is blasting Michael Jackson and it's giving me a headache so I think it's time to notice that pile of homework lying on the floor. Yes, it's on the floor. I threw all the contents of my bag on the floor cause I was too frustrated with it.

1:55 PM

Friday, June 26, 2009

Random update.

First Farrah Fawcett, now Michael Jackson? Is this some death period for famous icons? There are people out there struggling with horrible things like cancer and here I am struggling with homework and thinking I'm going to get screwed by exams. It's time I lived my life the right way. Speaking of homework, I somehow get reminded of hypocrites who tell people that exams are not the most important thing, and all this while they're secretly mugging away.

Nice.

3:44 PM

I think. I'm at a point in my life where it's do or die.

I'm sitting in front of the computer and eating tiramisu (which I feel has some alcohol but my sister a.k.a the alcoholic doesn't think there's any) that they brought back from the restaurant they went to on Father's Day. I don't know why, but I kept thinking it was a Japanese restaurant so I refused to go and I felt kind of lazy and sleepy. Turns out, it was an Italian restaurant and I missed out on it. God, I feel stupid. My mum was telling me, while I was scraping at the complimentary tiramisu cake (they became members (?!?!)) that they brought back, that she ordered some beef thing and it was quite a small piece on a really big plate. I gave her my -.- look and told her that's what you get for going to some Italian restaurant. Apparently my sister had pasta so it was a better deal since it was quite filling. They spent more than a hundred bucks @.@ I've never seen them spend so much except for like, important stuff. Dang I should've went.

Three consecutive days of Physics remedial. Wow. I have to say, it's quite creepy now that I know he knows what's going on in blogs 'cause he knows that people post what he says on their blogs. That's three "know"s in a sentence. This reminds me of the movie 'Knowing'. Okay, deviating from the main point here. Anyway, I feel like I have to censor things now. It's really weird. But, knowing myself, I'll just say it all out anyway. I was bored to tears. Today I could've cried. Literally. This is how I spent the three hours: half of the time talking to someone beside me (though today I stoned at my bag 'cause there wasn't anyone interesting near me), a quarter of the time doing the worksheet he gives out, an eighth of the time daydreaming and the last eighth of the time trying to absorb whatever he's trying to teach. Honestly, I don't need remedial for last year's topics. I need this year's ones. Guess that speaks volumes about their teaching abilities. I'm not saying he's not smart, he's just not a good teacher.

I realise I really miss blogging. Huh. I guess writing really is my passion after all. That's why the drama route in JC is so tempting. I'll be able to write about the types of plays and give CRITIQUE. God knows I've got alot to say about stuff. I'm just only able to write it down, not say it out. Then the performing in public part just brings out memories of stage fright. I swear my stage fright's horrible. During NanHua Speaks, I pretend I'm blind and everyone else isn't really alive and I'm speaking to myself. Also, there aren't concrete scripts, just a basic one for the storyline. So that just makes me feel more comfortable. But in drama, you do have to memorise a script. And I'm like a human Dory.

I feel. Insignificant.

Well, I think I'll go back to eating my tiramisu. And spending my time watching random videos online. Such a great way to de-stress. Though I'm probably the person with the least amount of stress, even though I'm left with the most amount of homework. Ironic, huh? I just had a random thought. I think I'm not good with commitment. That's why I don't have lasting friendships. God I need to change this. Oh interesting: my sister's freaking out about the fact that she has a flu. She came back from church camp in Malaysia and she went out like, everyday for the past four days since she came back. And she's getting horribly paranoid about H1N1. It's funny. I just had another random thought. I think for girls, older brothers are better than younger ones because the younger ones are just like pests. Most girls I know don't like their younger brothers that much. Actually, just referring specifically to SiewKiang. Haha.

It's weird when I start writing and everything just flows out. Well, then. I better stop before some horrible thought comes out and I write it down here.

p.s. I can't believe I proofread my posts to check for grammar, spelling and whatnot mistakes. I'm such a dork -.-

12:03 AM

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

So, I was really bored and I ripped this off of facebook.

1) Put iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
"One Step At A Time" - Jordin Sparks
Hey! I have a smart Windows Media Player.

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
"Sexy Can I" - Yung Berg
O.O Okay I honestly don't know what this song is doing in my WMP. Wahahahaha.

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
"Don't Forget To Remember Me" - Carrie Underwood
Freaking smart. It produces like, smart stuff. Lol.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
"With You" - Chris Brown
Huh I guess it's to be with you? GOD. This is weird.

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
"Keep Holding On" - Avril Lavigne
More proof of the genius of my music player.

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
"Love Story" - Taylor Swift
We're all in a freaking love story?! -.- Well, this is what you get from JieJun's rumour box I guess.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
"Harder to Breathe" - Maroon 5
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
"The Climb" - Miley Cyrus
I guess I really want to climb something?!

WHAT IS 2+2?
"Wherever You Will Go" - 3 Doors Down
?!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
"Superman" - Five For Fighting
O.O

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
"Wind Beneath My Wings" - Bette Midler
What!?! Hahaha.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
"Misery Business" - Paramore
Totally.

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
"T-shirt" - Shontelle
I knew something stupid was bound to appear -.-

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
"Smile" - Lily Allen
Awwwww. True.

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
"Low" - Flo Rida
Riiiiiight. I'm taller than my mum okay!

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
"Womanizer" - Britney Spears
My wife will totally get the wrong idea HAHAHAHA. If I even want to get married. Oh then I should dance with all the ladies!

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
"Superstar" - Lupe Fiasco
Again, TOTALLY.

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
"Just Dance" - Lady Gaga
So. Not. -.- Someone should write a song called 'Just Sing'. That'll be my hobby then.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
"Fly On The Wall" - Miley Cyrus
All of you are insects -.- Eh don't come near me.

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
"If I never See Your Face Again" - Maroon 5.
Well. The title says everything, doesn't it?

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
"Built To Last" - Melee
No. God. Lol. I won't die?! Right.

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
"If I Ain't Got You" - Alicia Keys
I swear I'm not doing anything O.O Awww too bad I don't have anyone HAHA.

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
"Man In The Mirror" - Michael Jackson
I laugh at myself?!

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
"Pocketful Of Sunshine" - Natasha Beddingfield
True. Sunlight does hurt my eyes.

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
"Make It Mine" - Jason Mraz
O.O WHAT?!

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
"Valerie" - Amy Winehouse
Sorry JieJun. WAHAHAHAHAHA.

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
"Realise" - Colbie Cailat
Erm. They just haven't realised it yet? HAHAHAHAHA.

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
"The Man Who Can't Be Moved" - The Script
Right. I'm going to move him aside -.-

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
"Unwell" - Matchbox Twenty
Oh well. I guess I'm going to be sick today.

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
"Amnesia" - Britney Spears
Right.

Oh well. That's done. And I'm running late for Physics cause it's in an hour -.- Whatever.

8:00 AM

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Well, then.

I haven't been up to anything the past week or so so I don't really have much to talk about. Damn I've not stepped out of my house at all for the past 4 days (?!) Okay I need to get a life? All I've been doing is going online, chatting, facebook-ing, watching videos. I noticed YeeLing's score for Geo Challenge was like, getting higher by the minute and I feel threatened so I basically played Geo Challenge for an hour straight. Non-stop. And I'm a good 9000 points away from her :D Also, my brain is filled with so much Geography that it would probably blow up from excessive Geo Challenge-ing and flags of countries would spill out instead of brain matter. Coooooool.

Right. I sound like a kid. Moving on.

I guess the only thing I really can update on is the outing on Wednesday? The eight of us: Me, The Chin, Jereald (HA!) (This is JJ, by the way), Eunice, WeiJia, SinYi, JiaYu and XiuHuan went for the Sakura buffet at West Coast. Bottom line is, it isn't really good for eating. Though I practically binged on cakes most of the time and kinda enjoyed eating a whole bunch of chocolate, they don't offer much of a variety of food and it's kinda Malay? Maybe it's cause it was next to a mosque so it seems more practical to have Malay food. I don't understand, though, why they don't have normal buffet food. Weird. By the time it was over, I was really full and could barely drag myself anywhere, let alone the bowling alley -.- We kinda slacked around the park for awhile 'cause Eunice needed to tie her hair and I guess everyone was more or less shagged. Each time we saw a squirrel, we would go, "OOOOHHHHH..... AHHHHHHH.......YAYYYYYY" Okay, it was like, only me, SinYi and JieJun doing that. Obviously we weren't really excited -.- Someone suggested feeding peanuts. Hahahahaha. Acorns, people.

We were supposed to meet WeiQi for bowling (well obviously like, only me, Chye and J were going to bowl), and in the end she was late and didn't bring socks. So only the guys played, and it was like two games each and then we were headed for YeeLing's house *cue the double-take: Huh?!* It was really funny I guess 'cause Yeeling's a reknowned comedian (as we all know) so maybe it wasn't much of a surprise that her whole family's hilarious. I think that'd be really cool. Waking up everyday to watch a comedy. YeeLing's mum spoke to me in Mandarin and I didn't understand @.@ God that was embarrassing. YeeLing has a life-sized Tweety Bird in her house (cool right?!). I would want one, but only if it were like, baby Bugs Bunny. Or, it could be Storm/Jean Grey. Okay now I just sound sick -.-

Was this weekend like Church camp week or something. I know so many people who had their church camp over the weekend. In fact, my sister isn't back yet. Huh. Religion is. Necessary? No. Comforting? No. Weird? To me, I guess. I just can't bring myself to commit to a religion, I don't know why. Actually, I can't really say that, since the only religion I'm allowed to believe in is Christianity. If I were a Buddhist, my mum would kick me out for sure. So I guess this makes me an Atheist? Speaking of which, JieJun and I were at Redhill MRT Station and this was a long time ago but who cares. This Christian guy came up to us and I knew for sure it was like, his evangelism day or something. He asked if we were Christians and I said "Yes" (Oops I lied) and JieJun said "No" -.- So the guy got really carried away with talking about Jesus and he's Jehovah (which I was telling JieJun, the guy doesn't know how to spell Jehovah) and it made JieJun feel really insulted because along the way, the guy started to speak lowly of other religions. Even my sister says that the guy shouldn't have talked about other religions being unreal. So I'm thankful for the Christians in my life who do not force me to be a Christian. Those who do, however (my mother), well I can't do anything about it.

Huh. I said I didn't know what to blog about and now I can't stop blabbering.

I need to start doing my homework or else nothing will get done and I'll probably regret it and blame myself if I don't do well for O's. Then again, I really would love to see what happens if I do badly. I keep staring at my pile of homework and all I think about is, "I'm hungry and I need some chocolates". Then I'll go to the fridge and put chocolate sauce on everything I eat. Okay kidding.

Ellen DeGeneres rocks. She was giving this commencement speech at some university and she broke up the word "commencement" into the words "common cement", then she linked it to sidewalks. Isn't she funny? She ended the speech by saying: "Just remember this: You're gonna be okay." Then she pauses and continues, "Da da du dum .... Just Dance." And she goes down to the audience and starts dancing. Classic.

I guess that's it then. So much for an update. Literally, so much for an update.

Okay it isn't funny -.-

8:51 AM